A Few Life Movements

The whole of Project 61 fell apart yesterday, the other painter dropped out, so now it's just one mural artist trying to pick up the pieces. She's had the idea for years and still hasn't done anything with it, I don't imagine that she will be able to put it all together again. It's a shame, we were all really excited about the idea, but I think we had pretty differing views of what the idea was.

Now I'm trying to brainstorm a concept for a short film. I realized I haven't put anything new on my YouTube account in almost a year! And I did upload Astral Woman to Vimeo, so that's something, but looking at Astral Woman it feels almost like an exercise in aesthetic technique. That certainly has it's value, but I really want to tell a story that communicates something to people. It's bizarre to want to tell a story and then realize you don't have any stories to tell. The thing is, I do. I have plenty to say, but asking myself to structure it and put it into a container, that's where things get finicky. In some ways, it feels like anything is possible, but then that makes narrowing down the spectrum all the more difficult. I get overwhelmed by the breadth of possibilities and so instead I don't do anything.

I know that one thing lacking in a lot of my works is a connection to emotion. A friend mentioned that what I do is very cerebral, and that is something I have been noticing. I wonder if I start with defining an emotion that I would like my work to express, if I could then structure something around that expression of emotion.

Anyway, there's some stuff to think about.