The Internet Effect

I find posting on this strange, I'm uncertain of why I do it. I don't actually even expect anyone to read it, though while I write I am certainly addressing an 'audience', even if that audience doesn't exist...

It makes one feel strange. I should say, it makes me feel strange, I don't know how it makes everyone else feel. I've been finding it more and more difficult to understand myself as personal expression through language. I love to talk, that's true, but on here, I type and then later I look at it, and it reads like someone else typed it. The language I'm using is not relatable to me, does that make any sense?

I guess I've often felt that locking something down in writing that expresses your personal opinions is very difficult to do, because opinions shift so often. That's why I prefer to try and express myself through fiction and abstraction, it feels more real somehow, probably because it's fluid, the way I think minds are.

There are things that people can say that very much illustrate the way they feel, but the way we all feel changes, I think. Maybe not, though, maybe a lot of people are very comfortable and direct with how they feel and it is close to constant, with subtle shifts that don't much effect how they talk about things...I don't really know.

I like the idea of a page that is easy to upload and designed for personal expression, but I'm not sure I can figure what to do with it. I guess this is it, what I'm doing.